i am a completely different person than i was when i started this last summer.
more content to myself i think.
i care less about apreance.
(fuck i have a mo-hawk now i think thats apparent)
i am now completely aware of how little i control my life and that i should just give up and go along with the ride.
im not as depressed nor as nieve as i was...

but im pretty sure thats the take up in drug use.

make you mature faster by short periods of wonderful stupidity.

i cannot decide if ive become more or less ADD.

oh and i have FRIENDS this year.
real true blue friends.
the type that take care and love you.

and that has changed me more than anything else.

in good and bad ways.

i dont know.

i go back and read all the things ive typed ages ago...
AND CANT BELEIVE WHAT A FUCKING WHINEY ASS STUPID BITCH I WASS!
GOD DAMN!
i dont even know how the few people i hung out with could possible stand my ass.

jesus!

i simply cant beleive the person i was just last summer.

anyway
bye.